Okay. Barf post.
It's been really great moving out. I'm making my food, doing laundry, keeping a decent home with my roommate.
AMR...whoo boy
I don't even know what to say.
FTO has been pretty decent, mostly. I'm harping on the bad things. Its not all bad. Just trying to get it off my chest.
A few things about the company and workers have me less than enamored. And some of them are really great, friendly, helpful etc.
My FTO has bad allergies or something. Here tried to IV himself something (we're all basics), but he blew his vein. So he got his partner to give solumedrol IM. I got "give me an alcohol wipe", etc. He previously had a medic give him something PO.
I do not think he's a BAD guy, but this seems sketch. He's not getting anything to get him buzzed or high or anything and his sinus issues are really awful. But. I don't agree with this method. Get a doctor to help? I dunno.
One shift I was with him and a CCP. She's got this tough guy front, but once she settles down, she's not an a-hole. But she also (apparently) doesn't know as much as she thought she did. She's smart, I agree, but she's also apparently become complacent with a paragod complex.
FTOs partner quiet, but gives me looks. He doesn't even like talking to me. Usually it's to say I messed up, but not anything all that helpful.
Example. Second shift of being in the truck. I keep mentioning I do not have a list to check to make sure we all have our gear. I'll eventually memorize it, but I just don't know it all yet. It's not necessarily a lot, I just haven't gotten that habit yet.
He already had the gear out on the gurney. I checked expiration dates on drugs and such. I forgot to check for an O2 bottle and regulator. FTO looked like $^$@ and was trying to get himself together in the VST room. Partner was eating food. Gurney was in the hall. I checked it over and told them I thought it was good but again mentioned I didn't have a list so they might want to double check. FTO is spaced out and partner is giving my the "okay whatever" cold shoulder.
For reference my shift is 2245-0945
I ask if I can do something. They tell me to pull the truck around and load the gear up. I find it and it's literally the only one I need to back up. I come in and ask if I can have a spotter to get a feel for it. Because I finished EVOC Monday... I'm not 100% comfortable backing up. They said no, just don't hit anything.
First call, there's no oxygen. We were lucky to not need a portable. But partner told me not knowing "That's not a valid excuse". I've literally asked for a checklist or got them to check. But they didn't. I know it's dumb of me to have forgotten that, oxygen is super common.
Note, FTO refuses to let me drive on the roads because I missed a few exist and got into an empty incoming lane once at night. I need more advance on exits than he gives because I don't drive aggressively as they do. He refuses to pass me if I don't get a new glasses prescription because I couldn't read the signs as far as he could.
Note. I had EVOC Monday morning and moved here 1 Saturday before. I got a 50 minute nap and it was like 5 in the morning. I had been up 23+ ish hours. I told them I felt too tired to drive (day 1 of overnight shift) , they said thet were all tired. So I drove the entire night.
I don't hit anything backing up ambo in the dark, because I'm hyper careful and make a 12-point turn. But I couldn't find how to turn on the lights.
I pull the truck around and load up the gurney by myself and stow away the gear. I'm always the first to volunteer (we have another guy on FTR) to clean, do anything. I washed the truck by myself yesterday because everyone else wanted to go home. But this feels sad.
We got back to base today and I really had to go to the bathroom. I deconed the stretcher after every call without being asked and anything else thar was needed. No complaints.
I didn't have time to go to the bathroom because I was cleaning the trash from the ambo and getting everything ready to go when we got back.
But I get back from the bathroom to see if I can help something and get told "We all clean the truck when we get back".
But we don't. Not when everyone's tired. But I was tired too but did it by myself before.
I could go on. But I feel a little... worthless. I'm leaning stuff and when the team does something "This didn't happen". "You didn't see this"
And it's a little discouraging.
I've gotten some praise. Leaned stuff. But.
Heck man..