I no longer want to work a horrible schedule, with people who are burnt out and hate their job, no longer do I want to be the butt of my housemates jokes about how I am not seen for 6 days at a time because I am either at work or collapsed, I don't want to sleep for 15 hours and still feel like I haven't slept a wink, I am sick of feeling tired and having black circles under my eyes and I want a normal schedule, normal human interaction and normal human relationships and normal human pleasures including sex.
I have decided to find alternate employment. It is a shame because I like helping people, I like variety and I genuinely like the clinical problem solving but no longer am I prepared to watch life pass me by.