One time I went to the movie theaters, the only four consecutive seats in the theater were next to me. Four girls went to sit there, and the one that had to sit next to me said to her friends loud enough for me to hear "Ew, I don't want to sit next to him. Trade with me, please!" and they argued a bit "Just sit down next to him!" I wasn't doing anything, I wasn't gunning them with my eyes, I took a shower, brushed my teeth, put deodorant on, cologne on, etc. I feel very repulsive and things like that really reinforce it. Perhaps I am wearing the same cologne as the guy from Anchorman. Y'know, the puma one?
I think I feel so repulsive and very fearful of rejection just because I got shot down at a very young age. Had a sixth grade crush that totally went wrong, labeled gay in Jr. High School because I didn't have hair on my legs in PE, didn't have a deep voice, and I wasn't kissing girls in the hallways, and pretty much just lived the life style of not approaching girls and just keeping to myself "Why don't girls like me?"
There were some girls that I went after that I didn't straight up till them I was interested. I was put into the friend zone and tried getting out of 'em, but never did get out of it. I didn't even really like a friend sometimes. One of them I could never get to go get food with me just me and her. She always had to have another guy along. Perhaps she knew? Even a friend would go some place alone with me. She didn't. So the last time I talked with her, I decided that she really wasn't a friend anyhow since she wouldn't even go somewhere like In-N-Out with me after work, she always bailed on me, so I just told her "I don't want to hang out with you anymore" when she wanted me and another guy to go to the movies with her, lol.
It's lame, lol.
Oh, I don't have much to be confident about either.