Glad my story could be of some help man, stay strong. If you ever feel like you need a break from EMS to deal with mental health or addiction issues, there is no shame in taking one then coming back to it later, thats what I have been doing the past few months. Definitely better to do that rather than risk getting in trouble or getting yourself or someone else hurt because of either substance abuse and/or mental health problems. I'm happy to say I'm starting back up in a few weeks at a new company in the Boston area! I think mental health and addiction problems (whether it be something like heroin or even alcohol) are alot more prevalent in healthcare overall than alot of people realize. With all the tough skin needed to survive in this line of work, people tend to not talk about it at all until its too late. So I'm definitely an advocate for more awareness and support for all providers mental health.
Message me if you ever wanna chat man.