My final thoughts on this thread. You guys and gals can think whatever you like about why, how, what, etc happened. I know for a fact one thing is for sure. A great paramedic died far to young. Many people were affected by him, be it directly or indirectly, as a patient, co worker, family member, student, etc. The entire EMS community is one less. How it happened, why it happened, none of that is really important in the grand scheme. Can we learn from this? Maybe one day. Many of us can start learning now, as many people did not have the good luck I did to know this man directly. But some of us are going to just have to wait. We can not even possibly begin to think about learning anything or looking at this in any other way than we already are. And that is through our tears, our anger, and our total disbelief. One day maybe most of us will be able to look back and say "I wish he had done this" or "Maybe if we do this differently from now on..." But not today. Not tomorrow. Not next week, next month, maybe even not next year. Eventually though, we will be able to look back and laugh at memories and learn from past mistakes. But please guys, let that come in its own time. It will come, you just have to let us wrap our heads around all this. For many of us, its not real yet. I know personally I am still waiting for him to jump off the MICU for mutal aid on an MVC or fire call. In my head I know this won't happen, but its a tough thing to get used to. I still feel like I am just having a bad dream (even though I haven't slept since), or I want to hit the back button on my life browser. He will be missed greatly by all who knew him or ever came into contact with him throughout his life. My final comment on this whole thread is borrowed from a dear friend's facebook status from last night. God must have needed one hell of a paramedic up there, because thats the only sensible reason I can come up with that you are gone. Rest easy Danny Mac, and God speed.