I am anonymously requesting your feedback because I am unable to discuss this topic with any friends, family, or employees.
I recently graduated paramedic school and have been working with my current employer for less than seven months (we are an ambulance service on the outskirts of a big city with ~100 paramedics, ~5 calls in a 12hr shift). I did not work as an EMT prior to medic school. Even though medic school was very tough and frightening at times I enjoyed almost every minute of it. I was so happy to get hired at such a great service as a fresh medic and I LOVED coming to work for the first 6 months until one really terrible shift:
I was working with a veteran paramedic that I have never worked with before and the night was going great until I noticed that she was doing something VERY unsafe and I requested that she stop what she was doing (there was no patient in the ambulance). This person’s reaction was very unprofessional and we both were angry at each other for the rest of the night.
Ever since this occurrence I am sickened with the idea of going back to work. Now I can’t stop thinking about all of the things that I hate about being a paramedic. For example:
---Driving emergently at 0300 while trying to decipher what is reality and what are remnants of my dreams.
---Pretending to feel sorry for a patient with COPD due to 60 years of smoking.
---Being unbelted in the back with a partner who thinks code-3 driving means that they should drive like they are in a rally race.
---Working an overnight shift one day then working a day shift the next and then getting called in at 1am to work a shift at 4am.
I can’t stand being a paramedic. Is this just a phase that all new medics go through? Because I went through a lot of work to get where I am and I am considering throwing it all away.
I recently graduated paramedic school and have been working with my current employer for less than seven months (we are an ambulance service on the outskirts of a big city with ~100 paramedics, ~5 calls in a 12hr shift). I did not work as an EMT prior to medic school. Even though medic school was very tough and frightening at times I enjoyed almost every minute of it. I was so happy to get hired at such a great service as a fresh medic and I LOVED coming to work for the first 6 months until one really terrible shift:
I was working with a veteran paramedic that I have never worked with before and the night was going great until I noticed that she was doing something VERY unsafe and I requested that she stop what she was doing (there was no patient in the ambulance). This person’s reaction was very unprofessional and we both were angry at each other for the rest of the night.
Ever since this occurrence I am sickened with the idea of going back to work. Now I can’t stop thinking about all of the things that I hate about being a paramedic. For example:
---Driving emergently at 0300 while trying to decipher what is reality and what are remnants of my dreams.
---Pretending to feel sorry for a patient with COPD due to 60 years of smoking.
---Being unbelted in the back with a partner who thinks code-3 driving means that they should drive like they are in a rally race.
---Working an overnight shift one day then working a day shift the next and then getting called in at 1am to work a shift at 4am.
I can’t stand being a paramedic. Is this just a phase that all new medics go through? Because I went through a lot of work to get where I am and I am considering throwing it all away.