whatever it takes
So I started EMT-B school in mid-January. My teacher is really great. Works with us individually and everything. We're kind of just starting to move into skills training (opposed to the first two weeks with lectures around safety, professionalism, importance of documenting, how radios work, communicating with dispatch, etc. -- then anatomy / physiology / pathology). When we spend time doing skills (and it only started this past week with the most basic of basics -- airway management) I just CHOKE in front of the other students. Ugghdklsa. I do have social anxiety disorder (and ADD / OCPD / bipolar II). When I'm practicing after class with the manneqins and the mechanical airways / suproglottic airways I'm just a freaking ninja. So fluid and good at it. And on a knowledge level like I understand all the how they work / why the work / when to consider using certain ones. But like I said, I mean I just CHOKE during drills in front of everybody else. I'm so frustrated. My instructor will be like, "wtf you absolutely had this down the other day after class one-on-one". I'm so frustrated. Anybody else?