I talked with my therapist, a paramedic friend, and my employer. My paramedic friend informed me that something is holding me back from getting intercepts and my therapist identified that as fear. I now see that the fear is about being judged for unnecessary intercepts. I talked with my employer and they agreed to down grade my position to a EMT basic and will allow be to shadow a medic and re take the AEMT course. I have been making mistakes for a little while and now because of fear of intercepts those mistakes aren't being corrected. So I will work with a medic as a basic until I retake a AEMT course and WILL NOT be continuing to engage on this forum as it is not improving my care but worsening my mental health. Maybe after redoing my AEMT and I feel more comfortable as a provider I will update the forum but I am taking time away from patient care to re learn the basic up to my level.