I'm physically and mentally tired. My Internet at home is not working, I love being in an ambulance and wearing a uniform, but feel like a clown cause of how much respect we get as EMTs anyhow little we do and know in my area, and I lectured three EMT students, and I was disgusted by their reaction to things I was saying. I hate the way I look, and I felt better wearing a uniform, but now I feel like a clown, and I've been wasting my time in EMS. I :censored::censored::censored::censored:ing hate typing with my :censored::censored::censored::censored:ing phone too cause it auto corrects and doesn't know basic words so it changes to what it thinks I'm trying to type. Auto caps for me too. So annoying. I'm used to being my own spell checker and capitalize words on my own. I'm memorizing bone markings, muscle names, origin, insertion, ligaments, and tendons in the chest, and there is just so much to learn. I feel like even with the stuff I know, I'm retarded. I honestly feel stupid learning this stuff, and I just want to do what everyone else does, say it doesn't matter, and go through the algorithms. It's like that one part when Dr. Roy Basch, M.D. from The House of God is in the MICU or ER, I forget which part, but he just doesn't care anymore... it's not his problem, no need to stress himself.
Good news... I turned that auto junk off. HATE IT.