Ok. I know this has been brought up before, and I've read all the pros and cons about "relationships" in EMS. My problem is, I've already decided that he is worth it, but I apparently am not worth it to him. For reasons I won't go into, I CAN'T stop my feelings for him. The reason he gave me for not letting it happen is that he's too old. If that is the case, I have told him that I will wait until he thinks I'm old enough (I'm 22 now, 21 when we met, so its not like I'm illegal.) I worked at the same hospital ambulance with him for 3 mos. but do not currently work there due to getting fired for an unknown reason. Anyone's thoughts or advice welcome - for your info, I think I may be an alcoholic.