Hey everyone. I'm on my Mobile so I am very sorry if my grammar isn't great. I am having some pre class anxiety. Class hasn't started yet and I actually had a panic attack today. Honestly, I have horrible anxiety. I have general anxiety disorder since I was a kid. I am 22 now. I have been on meds and do not like them. They make it worse honestly. Panic attacks are the worst... I don't know if any of you have had them. The funny thing is some days I am just fine. Every once in a while I have a bad day. This really is my dream and I don't want to stop going after this. I did EMT class a year ago and got so stressed I had to quot class. My body broke into hives etc. I actually went to the ER. Here's the thing... I seem specialists... I have done CBT. I have been on over 20 meds my whole life. They simply don't work. I even tried marijuana once upon a time ago... It was medical marijuana and they said it could relax me. Ended up in the ER with a pulse rate of 180. Worst panic attack I had in my life. I'm surprised I have never given up or ended up doing drugs. I pat myself on the back for that.
People often ask me how I can volunteer for a fire dept with what I have. Honestly? I love the ems side of it so much... That when I get toned out for a call I stop thinking. Not completely... But I have a priority, and I love helping people. Funniest thing... Everyone I meet says they would never of guessed I had an anxiety disorder. I hide it so well. I can be on scenes and do what needs to be done no problem. In fact a lot of the full time guys have told me how well I do on calls and are excited for me going to class.
I'm worried about class... The material is not what bothers me its the social anxiety etc. With patients though? I'm fine...
I don't understand. I really want this but I am really anxious about class starting up. I'm already on chapter 8 in my book because I had my books from my last class before. I'm ahead of the game. Nobody else has their books yet even. It's a month long class so its quicker compared to the 4 month. I keep over thinking things. "What I'd Ido this" "what if I mess up on my clinical stuff... "What if I do this...." I mean it doesn't stop. I keep going over scenarios in my head.
I have been on so many calls... I have seen some brutal things... I know I can do the job. It's this social anxiety and worrying about the class itself. It's eating me alive.
Do you guys have any tips for class? Were you anxious going in? Last time I was like the only type b personality in the class. Everyone else was a type A so I just felt... Kinda like an outcast.
I was just wondering if any of you could give me some thoughts about what I can do in class and stuff to ease the anxiety. This class means the world to me.
People often ask me how I can volunteer for a fire dept with what I have. Honestly? I love the ems side of it so much... That when I get toned out for a call I stop thinking. Not completely... But I have a priority, and I love helping people. Funniest thing... Everyone I meet says they would never of guessed I had an anxiety disorder. I hide it so well. I can be on scenes and do what needs to be done no problem. In fact a lot of the full time guys have told me how well I do on calls and are excited for me going to class.
I'm worried about class... The material is not what bothers me its the social anxiety etc. With patients though? I'm fine...
I don't understand. I really want this but I am really anxious about class starting up. I'm already on chapter 8 in my book because I had my books from my last class before. I'm ahead of the game. Nobody else has their books yet even. It's a month long class so its quicker compared to the 4 month. I keep over thinking things. "What I'd Ido this" "what if I mess up on my clinical stuff... "What if I do this...." I mean it doesn't stop. I keep going over scenarios in my head.
I have been on so many calls... I have seen some brutal things... I know I can do the job. It's this social anxiety and worrying about the class itself. It's eating me alive.
Do you guys have any tips for class? Were you anxious going in? Last time I was like the only type b personality in the class. Everyone else was a type A so I just felt... Kinda like an outcast.
I was just wondering if any of you could give me some thoughts about what I can do in class and stuff to ease the anxiety. This class means the world to me.