emtkelley
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I am wondering this because ever since my mom died last Friday, I am wondering if I can ever get in the back of an ambulance again. I am not working EMS right now but since this happened, I am afraid of lights and sirens.
What happened was my dad called 911 when he found my mom "out" as he put it. He then called me and I drove over to the house. Upon arriving, there were two squad cars and the ambulance. The medic was just shutting the back doors and going around to the drivers side. They went L&S and ran a full code but she couldn't be saved. When I went in to see mom, after they had removed the tubes, ect, I looked at the monitor and it still had her strip in it....flatline.
I am having a terrible time getting these images out of my head. Am I rushing this? Will this feeling pass some day? I was supposed to start Paramedic class yesterday but it was cancelled due to low enrollment. The college is going to try to do it again this spring. I am not a new EMT. I have been in EMS for 12 years. I have seen my share of bad calls and never once did I consider dumping EMS.
Am I going crazy? How can I move past this and become the EMT I once was, without the reminders?
What happened was my dad called 911 when he found my mom "out" as he put it. He then called me and I drove over to the house. Upon arriving, there were two squad cars and the ambulance. The medic was just shutting the back doors and going around to the drivers side. They went L&S and ran a full code but she couldn't be saved. When I went in to see mom, after they had removed the tubes, ect, I looked at the monitor and it still had her strip in it....flatline.
I am having a terrible time getting these images out of my head. Am I rushing this? Will this feeling pass some day? I was supposed to start Paramedic class yesterday but it was cancelled due to low enrollment. The college is going to try to do it again this spring. I am not a new EMT. I have been in EMS for 12 years. I have seen my share of bad calls and never once did I consider dumping EMS.
Am I going crazy? How can I move past this and become the EMT I once was, without the reminders?