I understand. It is a hard question to answer. On the one hand I (and most others) don't want to crush the dreams of someone who wants to get into a field that we all love, but we have to be realistic and objectively analyize what it would mean to put this ptential liability on a Ambualnce or in the air. The situation sucks, and I wish the OP the best.
being a former firefighter/crash rescueman who went on to nursing thinking it was another rung up the ladder, that is NOT the case. Period. Different culture, different outlook, better pay, etc.
I wrote a paragraph here but cut it. Ask your MD for an EEG update occasionally if you have been seizure free on your meds.
"Swinging from ropes", getting hands on with drunks and risking bloodborne pathogens is all very romantic, but how about working with your mind (get a degree in political sci or law) in the "EMS" or disaster/emergency response arena? You can get your training and be a volunteer for your itch to be a part of the experience, but get up there and affect how the system works, huh?