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Hey Guy n Gals..
When you have a criminal history...It is easy to believe that the only thing to do is to continue to have a criminal history. Thought like..."i am a felon, who hire me" or thoughts similar may or may not arise.
High school was a party..after that..party continue. No dream, No direction. Just a peaceful vegetarian kid who liked punk music..
YEAR 2000 was arrested(less than a gram, controlled substance) . This is a felony, 6 month - 2 year state jail.I was put on, and then, violated probation,(not eligible for expungement) and did 6 month. Drifted around the country. writing journals,and exploring,for a few years.
YEAR 2004 was arrested(Less then a gram, controlled substance), This is a felony, 6 month - 2 years state jail. I violated probation, and went back to the clink for 7 months. At this point in my life i was so hungry and cold. The guy, O.D, having seizures, postictal,Excited delirium, lacerations,pulling of the restraints...that was me. I remember saying sorry 1000 times, (when i came to) to the paramedics that had to come get me ,after i had a drug induced seizure and was screaming bloody murder some place. War all the time. " No job, no home, no peace no rest"(bruce) I remember stopping on the corner and asking god to stop this suffering. Two weeks later, Police pick me up(2004). BUT that wanting to stop suffering didnt take place till I pay my consequence and did my 7 month time This brings us to 2006. Not for me. I do the work to change...its still working..
I have always liked EMS/Fire/emergency medicine. But,I tried to study music in college..but I did not believe in the education. 2006 and 2007 I began to work construction and landscaping. I also began to take the NON EMS class for the paramedic degree. 2008 i talk to the EMT program. I tell chief about the felony. He said I may or may not have a problem(lol with EMT SUCCESS) and that he he does not decide who can or can not ride out in clinical. They submit background to FD and Hospital weeks into basic, and before clinical.
At this point, its my dream, I will be an emt. Whats life with a dream? An existence , with the possibility of regret before death. AND, Whats life in pursuit of a dream? Tragedy, Triumph. Satisfaction, maybe. Honer, maybe. But my personal moment,in life,before death,a smile with out regret. Id rather love, then no love at all.
EMT Basic. I go for it. I read so far ahead. I have actual dreams about it, Eat,sleep and breath it. Im so happy and proud to actually, maybe, have a shot at something. I still have that binder, of the hand written notes i made from the full curriculum. I passed my mid term. Half the kids dropped out, by then. About then, the clinical coordinator called me to his office. He Told me that I could not complete the clinical(1 college credit). I Guess FD and hospital said no. I gave up for a day or two...I tried to call "other" ems programs to see if i could ride out there. I pass the class room portion(5 college credit) of EMT-Basic.
I spoke many times with a program director, in another city. Director told me that if national will let me test...director will let me come to class(Basic) and if i earn it, ride out. I apply to national..submit my history.Show my college transcript thus far, and some references. I also write a letter, to plead my case. About two month later, i get a letter telling me that I can test for national if i meet the educational requirements.
EMT Basic, and pass registry(and get state cert). My last day of basic was my first day of intermediate.
Now, here i am. State licensed EMT-Intermediate.
Working and plan to volunteer.
“Take long walks in stormy weather or through deep snows in the fields and woods, if you would keep your spirits up. Deal with brute nature. Be cold and hungry and weary.” civil d HDT
When you have a criminal history...It is easy to believe that the only thing to do is to continue to have a criminal history. Thought like..."i am a felon, who hire me" or thoughts similar may or may not arise.
High school was a party..after that..party continue. No dream, No direction. Just a peaceful vegetarian kid who liked punk music..
YEAR 2000 was arrested(less than a gram, controlled substance) . This is a felony, 6 month - 2 year state jail.I was put on, and then, violated probation,(not eligible for expungement) and did 6 month. Drifted around the country. writing journals,and exploring,for a few years.
YEAR 2004 was arrested(Less then a gram, controlled substance), This is a felony, 6 month - 2 years state jail. I violated probation, and went back to the clink for 7 months. At this point in my life i was so hungry and cold. The guy, O.D, having seizures, postictal,Excited delirium, lacerations,pulling of the restraints...that was me. I remember saying sorry 1000 times, (when i came to) to the paramedics that had to come get me ,after i had a drug induced seizure and was screaming bloody murder some place. War all the time. " No job, no home, no peace no rest"(bruce) I remember stopping on the corner and asking god to stop this suffering. Two weeks later, Police pick me up(2004). BUT that wanting to stop suffering didnt take place till I pay my consequence and did my 7 month time This brings us to 2006. Not for me. I do the work to change...its still working..
I have always liked EMS/Fire/emergency medicine. But,I tried to study music in college..but I did not believe in the education. 2006 and 2007 I began to work construction and landscaping. I also began to take the NON EMS class for the paramedic degree. 2008 i talk to the EMT program. I tell chief about the felony. He said I may or may not have a problem(lol with EMT SUCCESS) and that he he does not decide who can or can not ride out in clinical. They submit background to FD and Hospital weeks into basic, and before clinical.
At this point, its my dream, I will be an emt. Whats life with a dream? An existence , with the possibility of regret before death. AND, Whats life in pursuit of a dream? Tragedy, Triumph. Satisfaction, maybe. Honer, maybe. But my personal moment,in life,before death,a smile with out regret. Id rather love, then no love at all.
EMT Basic. I go for it. I read so far ahead. I have actual dreams about it, Eat,sleep and breath it. Im so happy and proud to actually, maybe, have a shot at something. I still have that binder, of the hand written notes i made from the full curriculum. I passed my mid term. Half the kids dropped out, by then. About then, the clinical coordinator called me to his office. He Told me that I could not complete the clinical(1 college credit). I Guess FD and hospital said no. I gave up for a day or two...I tried to call "other" ems programs to see if i could ride out there. I pass the class room portion(5 college credit) of EMT-Basic.
I spoke many times with a program director, in another city. Director told me that if national will let me test...director will let me come to class(Basic) and if i earn it, ride out. I apply to national..submit my history.Show my college transcript thus far, and some references. I also write a letter, to plead my case. About two month later, i get a letter telling me that I can test for national if i meet the educational requirements.
EMT Basic, and pass registry(and get state cert). My last day of basic was my first day of intermediate.
Now, here i am. State licensed EMT-Intermediate.
Working and plan to volunteer.
“Take long walks in stormy weather or through deep snows in the fields and woods, if you would keep your spirits up. Deal with brute nature. Be cold and hungry and weary.” civil d HDT
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