Yep....I've run into the same problem. I think that I have logged in, it even SAYS I've logged in, then when I try to get somewhere that I need to be logged in for, it says I am not logged in!!!
I am very sorry to hear about the accident and the loss of your friends.
As ffemt8978 said, remember that you did nothing to cause the accident, and that you were there to respond and you did the best you could to assist those who needed you. Try to keep discussing your thoughts and feelings...
I can't imagine being told NOT to take a BP by palpation...it is such a useful skill to have when you're in a noisy situation.
We also have people who seem to have forgotten the skills they learned in class, such as taking a manual BP, obtaining a good history, etc. etc. etc. I don't know if...
I'll agree that the Q-word is a biggie, as is washing and/or waxing vehicles. Just get them all nice, clean and shiny, and sure as anything you'll get a call that involves large amounts of mud/grass/snow/salt or something equally messy!