* crowd in the middle of the street
* car vs. bicycle
* 1st on scene
* victim was laying there, in recovery position
what does "somewhat" of a recovery position mean?
* in his own blood, and a bunch of other stuff.
what is "and a bunch of other stuff"? Gray matter? Intestines?
* without the help of a partner, and a fully-stocked rig
* I spent about 5 minutes there, by myself
* All I did was get some vitals. Not even that,
Here's where it's good to learn how things work on this site. At this point, what I'm hearing is that you really had no idea what was going on, nor did you take the time to do a head-to-toe evaluation. It sounds like you didn't know what you were working with. I suspect that might not be the case, but then again, it could.
The lesson from my point of view would be about the first thing you do once you commit to showing up on a scene to help. Figure out -- as best you can -- what is the immediate condition of the patient. At the very least, that is what you'd communicate to the responding unit.
Yes, the scene was understandably overwhelming at your level of experience, but still, whether the guy lived or not because you did or didn't start CPR is irrelevant (based on what you said) because you didn't appear to know what you were working with.
One point I'm making is we just got through a 90+ post thread where it wasn't until the end that we got the whole story. In the meantime, the poor OP got praised and condemned and though the thread was very interesting, a lot of it was based on faulty info, therefore, lots of false speculation by Monday Morning Quarterbackers.
* I just took a pulse
* He had agonal respirations...a rate of about 4.
* I should have flipped him over, and started CPR right away. But no. I just stayed there by him, not really doing anything, but monitoring his condition.
There's a blank that needs to be filled in here. MY take is that you assessed that the guy was beyond repair; that there was really nothing to do and that was based on your best judgment. That means you would have had to observed and evaluated much more than you reported to us.
(Personally, sometimes the BEST you can do is be with your patient as a human being in his or her last moments.)
* PD and FD ... took over, flipping him over, and starting CPR, which I could've started a good while back.
I didn't hear the part about them making a head-to-toe evaluation either, which this situation requires.
No one should automatically begin CPR on a MV vs. bicycle with a patient in agonal respirations, so in that, you weren't amiss, but the piece of the puzzle I need is did you consciously choose to NOT begin resuscitation or, overwhelmed, did you just blank out?
I'm not here to put pressure on you, but I need to make a point or two in general.
1) EMS, whether it be here or in the field is about communication. Often, on this site, firestorms start popping up over Posters not communicating adequately to us and thereby making themselves sound unprofessional, neglectful or unworthy of the job.
2) This site is good practice to make sure, when it comes to talking about calls, you take the time to get clear on what you're both presenting and asking.
* I keep thinking to myself that if he ends up dying, that I will be somewhat responsible.:sad: I think I just failed as an emt.
Most respondents were quick to come to your support, given the circumstances. But I see the central question, or maybe lesson, as a little bit different, so...
3) Whether you are on or off-duty, when you commit to a patient the first thing you do is make an adequate evaluation. (According to your post NO ONE did that for the poor guy!) In trauma like that, that's a Head-to-Toe exam unless it's OBVIOUS death is inevitable.
The truth is, you may have botched the call, but only if you didn't have a clue as to why you CHOSE NOT to begin resuscitation. Now that you've had the time to find out the outcome, what REALLY happened?
So it's clear,
sometimes fate throws us situations where we make poor choices that can appear to contribute to our patient's death. The truth is, death NEVER happens in a vacuum and there are ALWAYS many contributing factors to it, of which we, at the scene, only play a minor part.
We can run from that, or face it and learn from it. The only way you can fail as an EMT in this situation is to not come back to the work -- or HERE for that matter

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