So I just started blogging, possibly to keep my sanity, and I wrote this. However, I'd like to pose the question of what I wrote to the crowd here. So here goes...
My wife recently lost her job (in medical imaging), and as a result has been staying home with our two children. Despite the job loss, lately she’s been happier than normal. In fact, some days she seems down right giddy. Today she brought up if I had ever thought of changing my career. To what you may ask? Something completely away from medicine. Her reasoning was, I complain about my job every day I come home. Yet, I’m mostly satisfied (granted EMS is not where I want to end up) and can’t say I really hate coming to work. There’s nights I’d rather stay home, sure, but it’s not the absolutely dragging myself in tempted to call-in sick I’ve had before at jobs. I come home tired (I can say definitively I hate 24+ hour shifts) and I’m very frustrated with management right now, but I’m not unhappy or dissatisfied with the actual job.
Her comments did get me thinking though. Every person I know in acute care complains about their job. Much of it for the same reasons, stupid management, abusive patients, crappy hours and high workload. Is all of this really just a surrogate for the fact that we wallow around in human misery? If someone encounters our end (acute hospital and out-of-hospital care, i.e., not primary care) of healthcare they are, by definition, having a bad day. Early in my career I was either oblivious or chose to ignore this fact, but for the last two or three years its affected me more and more. Although it’s satisfying to run a complicated call, the realization that someone probably had a life-changing moment so I could get that satisfaction is no longer something I can ignore. This weird dichotomy is something I’m having to learn to process in a new-way, before it didn’t affect me at all. Are we all affected by it? Is that the reason that no one seems to be truly “happy and worry free” in acute-care? Why we all seem to bear some level of burden (and insanity)? Am I just hanging around the wrong people?
My wife recently lost her job (in medical imaging), and as a result has been staying home with our two children. Despite the job loss, lately she’s been happier than normal. In fact, some days she seems down right giddy. Today she brought up if I had ever thought of changing my career. To what you may ask? Something completely away from medicine. Her reasoning was, I complain about my job every day I come home. Yet, I’m mostly satisfied (granted EMS is not where I want to end up) and can’t say I really hate coming to work. There’s nights I’d rather stay home, sure, but it’s not the absolutely dragging myself in tempted to call-in sick I’ve had before at jobs. I come home tired (I can say definitively I hate 24+ hour shifts) and I’m very frustrated with management right now, but I’m not unhappy or dissatisfied with the actual job.
Her comments did get me thinking though. Every person I know in acute care complains about their job. Much of it for the same reasons, stupid management, abusive patients, crappy hours and high workload. Is all of this really just a surrogate for the fact that we wallow around in human misery? If someone encounters our end (acute hospital and out-of-hospital care, i.e., not primary care) of healthcare they are, by definition, having a bad day. Early in my career I was either oblivious or chose to ignore this fact, but for the last two or three years its affected me more and more. Although it’s satisfying to run a complicated call, the realization that someone probably had a life-changing moment so I could get that satisfaction is no longer something I can ignore. This weird dichotomy is something I’m having to learn to process in a new-way, before it didn’t affect me at all. Are we all affected by it? Is that the reason that no one seems to be truly “happy and worry free” in acute-care? Why we all seem to bear some level of burden (and insanity)? Am I just hanging around the wrong people?