This has been on my mind a lot lately. My last three tubes, I failed. The last attempt was heart breaking for me since I had a CLS grade 1, admired it, and before I put the tube in, it disappear. After trying to have a firefighter do Sellick's maneuver several times, I decided to redo the attempt, but the best I could get was a CLS grade 3 (could only visualize the epiglottis). As I fail more, I have been thinking more and more how to improve my intubation skill. Where did I go wrong?
I remember on the first recent failure I had, I had to stop 2 times to tell fire not to stop CPR while I attempt intubation. They were trying to be nice, but I prioritize compressions over intubation. When I finally proceeded, they dummies decided to slide the scoop under the patient as I had the laryngoscrope in the mouth. WTF? I also hate that you can be 10 seconds in and people start asking "Do you see anything?" So you think that it is OK to slide a scoop under the patient and talk to me as I intubate, but that compressions should stop? I've made it a point to lay down some ground rules (don't stop CPR, not even for breaths, don't talk to me, and don't move the patient as I intubate) before proceeding with intubation.
On the same call, I had decided I'd be OK using fire equipment since the last few arrest I did that and was OK. On that call, they ONLY had a size 4 mac AND no bougie. I realized they had no bougie (required for us to use on all tubes in our county), I had my partner run back to the ambulance to grab it, I then checked the blade, and realized it a size 4 only. I usually intubate with size 3. I decided to proceed with the size 4 instead of making my partner run back. I now 100% bring my stuff in (we are suppose to use fire stuff, but I felt that set me up for failure).
Anyways, I hope my next tube will go well. It is unfortunate that I had so many failures. It has been bothering me. Up until recently, my success rate was high, so I don't know why I feel like I am struggling, if I am working myself up, but I do feel like I am usually calm and methodical. I am in no rush on cardiac arrest since I do not consider the the tube to be the priority and I do not consider cardiac arrest load and go like how fire treats it (I dunno why they always want to immediately transport a working arrest..). I've been volunteering to do the tube too and let the fire/medic continue running the code since they are usually first on scene anyways. Sometimes I regret that too (I had one where I focused on the airway, they wanted to load and go, I didn't protest, we left scene quickly.... minutes on scene only.... he gave report how they didn't do dialysis that day... and I was just.... we never gave Calcium... we should've done that instead of load and go... ugh!!!).