So last night I messed up on a call and it caused a fellow EMT to get seriously injured and there might be a lawsuit from the family of the PT (no one died or had to be taken back to the hospital).
Based on this statement, I'm thinking your were carrying a patient, something happened, the patient fell, on your partner, resulting in your partner getting injured. Either that, or your crashed the ambulance, in which case, it's bad. esp if it seriously injured your partner. But if a lawsuit might be happening, I wouldn't be posting about it on the internet.
I had to write up an incident report and I’m really doing my best not to spiral into a deep depression.
it's normal to write incident reports anytime something bad happens. equipment failures, equipment failures with injury to patient, provider injury, bystander complaint, patient complaint, supervisor complaint, etc. don't stress having to write an incident report, as this is part of EMS.
I’m doubting my abilities as a provider, as a partner, and even if this is the right field for me.
from one incident? my friend, plenty of people in EMS have messed up during their career. many of us have sore backs, and have been injured on the job. and have had to write incident reports. you might be over reacting.
This could cost me my job and if I can’t even do basic transport without messing up, then I’ve got no chance of getting into 911, let alone thinking I can do nursing.
Ehhhh, I know more than one EMT who can't do basic transport, but still got a 911 job. It's not a great thing, but it does happen. I know more than one EMT and paramedic that is grossly incompetant, yet still has a 911 job. It's scary, but sadly true.
Thanks, everyone so far at work I talked to said “we told you many times that you need to work on this, but you always said you were going to work on it but didn’t for whatever reason. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and fix it.” To an extent they’re right, but still that didn’t help.
I don't know what you did, or what you need to work on, nor do I want you to provide any details, but it seems like you have been told what you need to work on, so do it. fix whatever issue you need to work on. and based on what you are describing, it can be fixed, as several people have told you to fix it.
If you do get fired, don't worry; getting fired from a transport company in NJ is not a career ender. They were a dime a dozen, all over the state, and many are constantly hiring (and, truth be told, the hiring standards are typically a pulse and a patch, and yes, I know from experience). getting fired from a 911 company in NJ is not a career ender. It happens, and I know several people that were fired from a 911 company and still work on 911 ambulances.
Making a mistake isn't a career ender, nor is it an indication that you aren't cut out for this field. the important thing is to learn from those mistakes, and not repeat them.
