abckidsmom
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In my career, not many calls have gotten inside my head and set up shop on the crazy shelf. I had one put me for a doozy this week.
It was a roller coaster night, and I started out tired, which didn't help at all. We had a baby not breathing which went really well, resuscitated him no problem, and on the way back from the hospital, got a call from another medic unit requesting a female provider for a girl who was raped.
This girl gave graphic details, was appropriately tearful and "Why me?" and just triggered all kinds of badness in my head. I couldn't stop thinking about her, I couldn't get on with my day when morning came, and I really needed to bounce the whole thing off an uninvolved third party, not my partners, because they did not get it at all.
I spoke with someone from here (THANK YOU!) and then when it was a decent hour, I spoke with our agency's CISM person. I am not sure what the difference is between "real" CISM and the casual conversation I had with her, but it was really helpful, and broke the cycle of spinning thoughts.
I have to say, it is really rare that a call bothers me to that degree, and I am so glad the system worked for me, because I was not getting back in control of my thoughts very easily.
It was very telling of our profession that the CISM person made a little joke: "Know what works for me in these situations? Liquor! Lots of it!"
I made it through with just a nap.
Do you have experience with CISM success? Failure?
I know I have intentionally skipped many CISDs, I felt that if the call wasn't bothering me, I was fine. I am glad that the process at my agency didn't involve the other people on the scene being forced to sit down and talk the situation out. That would have been a nightmare for me.
It was a roller coaster night, and I started out tired, which didn't help at all. We had a baby not breathing which went really well, resuscitated him no problem, and on the way back from the hospital, got a call from another medic unit requesting a female provider for a girl who was raped.
This girl gave graphic details, was appropriately tearful and "Why me?" and just triggered all kinds of badness in my head. I couldn't stop thinking about her, I couldn't get on with my day when morning came, and I really needed to bounce the whole thing off an uninvolved third party, not my partners, because they did not get it at all.
I spoke with someone from here (THANK YOU!) and then when it was a decent hour, I spoke with our agency's CISM person. I am not sure what the difference is between "real" CISM and the casual conversation I had with her, but it was really helpful, and broke the cycle of spinning thoughts.
I have to say, it is really rare that a call bothers me to that degree, and I am so glad the system worked for me, because I was not getting back in control of my thoughts very easily.
It was very telling of our profession that the CISM person made a little joke: "Know what works for me in these situations? Liquor! Lots of it!"
I made it through with just a nap.
Do you have experience with CISM success? Failure?
I know I have intentionally skipped many CISDs, I felt that if the call wasn't bothering me, I was fine. I am glad that the process at my agency didn't involve the other people on the scene being forced to sit down and talk the situation out. That would have been a nightmare for me.