Shelby
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Hey there,
My name is Shelby.. I'm new to this forum and just getting back into the world of EMS.
I became an EMT-B when I was 19 and worked in the field for awhile. I loved it, but I was still super young & kinda lost with my direction, and explored some other choices. Now, at 22, I've realized I've left my heart in the field, have renewed my cert, and am planning on going to NCTI for the paramedic program.
There's just one problem.
I've always known in my heart that I've been put here to be in the medical field. I know I will never be content if I chose a career in some other field. I, however, have always had a super intense fear of needlestick injuries since I was a kid and learned what they were. Its to the point where I feel OCD about it, and I'm not even a paramedic yet. I know the chances of contracting anything are extremely low, especially with PEP, but my main concerns are HIV and HCV, especially HCV since there isn't currently PEP for it. Its to the point where I'm starting school in May, and feel like I'm going to chicken out at the last minute, which I know I will absolutely hate myself for. I just have that feeling that I'll be one of the unlucky few, even though I know my mind is just playing games on me. For whatever reason, I feel like God is using this experience to teach me to push past fear, which is something I've always had a difficult time with. I guess I am just looking for any encouragement to push forward with my goals, and to see what your opinions are.. I'm hoping that if I always remain conscious and diligent, it shouldn't be a problem.
Sorry for the rambling, and I'm hoping y'all won't crucify me for posting this.. just needed a space to vent.
Shelby
My name is Shelby.. I'm new to this forum and just getting back into the world of EMS.
I became an EMT-B when I was 19 and worked in the field for awhile. I loved it, but I was still super young & kinda lost with my direction, and explored some other choices. Now, at 22, I've realized I've left my heart in the field, have renewed my cert, and am planning on going to NCTI for the paramedic program.
There's just one problem.
I've always known in my heart that I've been put here to be in the medical field. I know I will never be content if I chose a career in some other field. I, however, have always had a super intense fear of needlestick injuries since I was a kid and learned what they were. Its to the point where I feel OCD about it, and I'm not even a paramedic yet. I know the chances of contracting anything are extremely low, especially with PEP, but my main concerns are HIV and HCV, especially HCV since there isn't currently PEP for it. Its to the point where I'm starting school in May, and feel like I'm going to chicken out at the last minute, which I know I will absolutely hate myself for. I just have that feeling that I'll be one of the unlucky few, even though I know my mind is just playing games on me. For whatever reason, I feel like God is using this experience to teach me to push past fear, which is something I've always had a difficult time with. I guess I am just looking for any encouragement to push forward with my goals, and to see what your opinions are.. I'm hoping that if I always remain conscious and diligent, it shouldn't be a problem.
Sorry for the rambling, and I'm hoping y'all won't crucify me for posting this.. just needed a space to vent.
Shelby